Wanting.
God. I want you.
I want to be founded in you. Everything. My words. My actions. My leadership. My ministry. My marriage. My family. My home. My relationships. My calling. My future…
Everything must be rooted and established in you. My flesh and my comfort must not be allowed to interfere with any of these elements of my life. I know that they want to. I know that they strive to. I know they have the capability of doing so. But I cannot let that happen. I must choose to make sure it won’t happen. Isn’t that what desire boils down to? Choice?
Desire isn’t about what I feel like doing, or feel like not-doing. That would be my emotions. Even more, that would be my IMPULSE. A life led by impulse is headed for destruction. A life led by diligence and discipline leads to prosperity.
Prosperity is what the Lord wants for us.
3 John 1:2 - “… I pray that in ALL THINGS, you may prosper, just as your soul prospers.”
Prosperity in Christ does not come cheap though. It is not free, like grace is free.
God does not go on sale. He is expensive. He is costly. Anything that we want to seek from the Lord comes at a high price. The price of our lives. The price of our comfort. Of our effort. Of our persistence and of our perseverance.
Yet, my emotions and impulses don’t always push me towards God. In fact, they seem to push me away from Him just as often as they do towards him. If I allow them then to rule my comings and my goings, I will not, nor ever, apprehend God in the fullness of which He is ready to be apprehended.
BUT - the spirit man inside of me WANTS God. Wants to apprehend Him. Wants to be filled with Him. Wants to have intimacy with Him. Wants to be used by Him.
This ‘wanting’ never changes.
And the more I choose to submit and surrender my daily life to this wanting, the more I will lay hold of the manifestations of such desires.
What an amazing prize it is.
JJ
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